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All I seem to want to do recently is relax. Work has worn me out. The three days off were a great recovery from the seven days straight four of which were eight our cart pushing shifts. I dream of places far and of places near. Seattle, Portland, Venice, Scotland, Rome, Bhutan, Panama, New York, Spain, even places as close as LA entice me. However it seems impossible to have free time and money at the same time since they are essentially the same thing.

I want to write things, but it seems hard. I can not just sit down and write random ideas I have yet, because I do not even know where to start most of the time nor do I have the courage to just write anything at all. Blogging is really the best outlet, because it makes me feel semi productive and completely incompetent at the same time. I want to blog short stories soon just first need to work on writing the short stories or coming up with the ideas for the stories.

For right not I am going to go and do some reading, to all those out there writing tonight I hope you feel more alive than I do, being cut off from the easygoing style of writing I like, I only hope that forcing the writing will work like so many authors say they have to.

I got so sidetracked... I wrote all that three hours or so ago and I had finally gotten a grove and knew what I was going to say and now all I want to do is sleep.

oh and fuck people who use ... when it makes no sense fucking Jon.

I have come up with an astounding new theory which is almost sure to revolutionize the way in which we look at ourselves and our fellow human beings who supposedly walk amongst us. This theory came in a way which is completely impossible to understand except by the other people who have had the privilege of being the mere vessel of theories that were destined to change the world. It was a moment of astounding clarity and emotional arousal at the plain and obvious fact that this had not simply occurred to me before.

My theory which I will soon trademark once I prove to them its originality(so do not try and steal it) is called simply: The world theory of parking lots- What exactly is this theory you are asking yourself? It is made up of three parts

1. The world is not enough- We constantly want more... When I see a parking space open near the back which I would normally happily accept I am sometimes want more and become daring, I venture out to see if I can find the a space in a closer more convenient space. In doing so I risk the chance of forever losing the security I once had in the cushy spot at the back. I have come to realize that this rule is relevant to somewhere between 1/5 and 5/5 of the people of this world.

2. A person working at the place in which I am shopping is my slave and therefore should be building me a great wall, some pyramids or something of equal value. - When asking to do something I have deemed about 8/16ish of people believe that common courtesy does not apply to those of obvious less social standing then me since they are working while I am shopping.

3. Dancing in the rain makes you wet- If it is an uncomfortable day or a pleasant day outside it must be discussed with people you hardly know before proceeding to anything else, when relevant it is also very good to throw in a simple pinch of advice which is commonly known. For instance if you want to ask someone to help you take something to you car the sentence might go something like "Hey its really hot out here you must be sweating a lot, you should make sure you stay hydrated, oh yea can you help me take this to my car." another example would be confusing the person, when it is 102 degrees or more outside you can try and convince the person they have gone insane by saying something like " Sheesh its cold out here better put on my sweater before, you help me take this stuff to my car. Oh and you should wear gloves when its this cold out or else you might get frostbite."  This rule is one that applies to 6/7 people who are randomly selected from a specific sample.

4. Most people have not danced with the devil in the pale moonlight - as simple as it sounds really people do not like to dance by natural light.

5. You do not need to see my identification- Jedi mind tricks work on the VERY VERY gulliable about 3.1415% of the time.

This was fun while I was bored but not I must go run errands....

A great read I would suggest to anyone; however if you work in an office building I think it is a must read. The book is by Joshua Ferris and it is around 380 pages. It is a hilarious book which shows the best and worst of peoples characters. It pokes fun out the crazy little quirks we all have and the way in which these quirks become a safe way in which we like to describe ourselves.

Title: Playing for Pizza
Author: John Grisham
Pages: close to 300
Summary/ Comments: It does not have that strong must turn the page to see how it turns out aspect. However I still loved this book, it was a nice read and it is one of those books that will just make you happy reading it. The ending was good and the last hundred or so pages made me love the book. It is set in Italy as well which made me love it even more because I can not wait to visit there. I would suggest it to anyone really, its an easy read and an overall pleasant book exactly the type of book that John Grisham writes with supreme skill.

Title: First Among Sequels

Author: Jasper Fforde
Pages: 383
Summary: Pretty much like any other book of the Thursday Next series. It was good and I enjoyed it a lot, however it was not as amazing as Something Rotten. Still I would suggest this series.

Title: Him, Her, Him Again, The End of Him
Author: Patricia Marx
Pages:  217
Summary: A very funny book about a girl studying to be an English grad student at Cambridge. She becomes infatuated with a man and can not get over him. Patricia is a good author and she has written for the New Yorkers and New York Times, and is a writer for SNL, so you really can not go wrong reading this book. Was a little weak at the end in my opinion but that might have just been since I was tired from sitting in the airport for like 9 hours.

As i sit here waiting for my mom to get home so I can take her car. We try and make no noises to make sure we do not disturb my dad in the other room. Jason has taken to trying to go to sleep which he is doing with some skill. I have decided to blog and text emmy.

Being back is really nice, but its hard trying to get everything sorted back in my room. I want to redo it before I unpack but it is difficult since I have all this dirty laundry and other things I need to unpack and start taking care of.

FYI I am tired of answering the questions of where I plan to get a job and what I plan to do next year. The first one is a simple, I am applying at Barnes and Nobles, Borders, and maybe cosco. I am also considering working on the political campaigns I am going to call those people and see what exactly I would be doing and then decide on that. For schools next year I found out even though I have enough units to be a junior I am technically not. (Must be noted that I finished two years of school in one year though so my grandparents and ryan owe me money) anyways so I will most likely be going to community college for a year and then transferring somewhere with good writing and history programs. I actually have no problem being that far away nor do I have a problem with the area of humboldt but depending on what I want to do it will GREATLY benefit me if i decide to transfer to a school with more prestige (I hate that by the way because i think that the vast majority of four years give you the same education).

My mom is still not home...

To do list over next week must keep adding to it.:
1. Find a Job
2. Talk to the Miramar counselors
3. Schedule a doctors appt.
4. Finish reading Playing for Pizzia
5. Update my book list on this site.
6. Fix the sink in the front bathroom

Mom is home now so i am leaving.

Somewhat intoxicated at the time:
"I am the math major... on call, I mean if math majors were like doctors and important in any way, I would be the mathematician on call."

Remind me to make a list of the reasons why I am insane sometime.

   As I sit here wondering how long I can put off reading the material to write the essay I have due, I have managed to watch the complete series Studio 60 on the Sunset Strip, I must clear up the fact that as bad as this sounds it is only a one season series. It was canceled because it did not have enough viewers although it was the show I could not wait for on Monday nights last year, not Heroes. Heroes is good do not get me wrong, but I have watched it because Studio 60 was on after it and this year because Chuck was on before it.

    This show however has made me really think of all the culture wars we have raging in the U.S. as one of the characters states after being asked by another character" I do not even know what the sides are anymore" he remarks "your side hates my side because you think we think you are stupid, and my side hates your side because we think you are stupid." This show is more aimed at the basic religious right(and in the context Neocons too because they are technically not religious right) vs. pretty much all liberals because we are godless heathens who are unpatriotic because we do not believe in a war against "terror".

    These class wars or societal wars whatever you want to call them have always existed I just do not think there was ever the media and ability for everyone to voice their opinions as easy as it is for us to do it now. I mean look at me I am a 19 year old college student who can put whatever he wants to say on the Internet for everyone to read should they want to. It is weird just how many societal battles going on, the RR vs Liberal one is just the one that constitutes war because it has so many battle grounds. I mean if you want to talk about other battles going on then you have a lot such as Anonymous vs Scientology or MTV culture vs. Everyone against it. Things like this go on constantly. I forgot where I was going with this since people will not stop interrupting me!!! Whatever take it for what its worth if I remember I will edit it later.

As far as T.V. goes there are few shows I would even try and watch. The shows I have decided are great are these Scrubs, Chuck. I like Firefly, Friends, Supernatural as well however Supernatural is not on the same level and the other two are canceled. I like these shows for a couple reasons, mainly they are funny and at the same time deal with bigger issues, also the characters are actually likable and somewhat believable as human beings, they focus on satyric comedy, and the writing is outstanding in most cases.

So I have decided to make a list of my favorite episodes of each of these series over the next month or year or so who knows. I will start with Scrubs since it is still currently running and I just finished watching the entire series.

Favorite Episodes:
101 My First Day / Pilot - This is a great starting episode. It sets the tone for the way the show is going to go for pretty much the whole series, but definately the whole season. n the series opener, all the major characters are introduced as they start life at Sacred Heart Hospital.

115 My Bed, Bath, and Banter - This is an amazing episode. It explores relationships and focuses on just everything to do with them really. I like the way its done and in general it is just good. The episode switches between Elliot and J.D. spending a sex-filled day in bed and the ensuing weeks, where their new relationship breaks down. The hospital staff reveals their feelings to a psychologist. It also has one of my favorite quotes from the show by Dr. Cox
"Relationships don't work the way they do on television and in the movies: Will they, won't they, and then they finally do and they're happy forever -- gimme a break. Nine out of ten of them end because they weren't right for each other to begin with, and half the ones that get married get divorced, anyway. And I'm telling you right now, through all this stuff, I have not become a cynic, I haven't. Yes, I do happen to believe that love is mainly about pushing chocolate-covered candies and, you know, in some cultures, a chicken. You can call me a sucker, I don't care, 'cause I do...believe in it. Bottom line...is the couples that are truly right for each other wade through the same crap as everybody else, but, the big difference is, they don't let it take 'em down. One of those two people will stand up and fight for that relationship every time, if it's right, and they're real lucky. One of them will say something."

124 My Last Day - This is really the best end to a season I have seen in a long time. It made me want to keep watching like any good season end does. The interns realize they have become jaded after working at the hospital for a year, and they decide to treat a patient aggressively. After Dr. Cox chides Jordan for her predictability, she ends the episode by dropping a bombshell.

301 My Own American Girl - Good episode ending. Really just a pretty cool episode all around although I really like it because its when Elliot gets her hot haircut. J.D, Turk, and Carla work together to find out what is wrong with one of J.D.'s patients. Elliot, frustrated that everyone walks all over her, and desperately needing to change her bad-luck streak, acts on some advice from the Janitor and gets a make-over.

314 My Screw Up - This is my second favorite episode of the whole series. It is the best written episode of any show I have ever seen on T.V. it would be my favorite if I did not like My Way Home so much. It is just an all around amazing episode. Jordan, Danni and Ben return to help prepare a gathering for Dr. Cox's son's first birthday. Turk and Carla clash over removing Turk's mole, and changing Carla's last name after they marry, while one of Ted's band members quits. Dr. Cox angrily blames J.D. for a patient's death and dismisses him, but Ben calms Dr. Cox down and talks some sense into him, and he eventually forgives J.D. There is a sad twist at the end.

316 My Butterfly

503 My Day at the Races - It is a really good episode about moving forward. It focuses on overcoming obstacles and also is a good Elliot/ J.D. episode. Trying to complete a list of goals before his 30th birthday, J.D. signs up for a triathlon. Meanwhile, Turk takes on a patient who wishes to be hypnotised instead of put under anesthesia during surgery, and Elliot finds she and Jake know little about each other.

507 My Way Home- My favorite episode. It is the 100th episode. It is based around a million Wizard of Oz metaphors. Just like My Screw Up is based around the Sixth Sense metaphors. It is a great episode. J.D. gets called in to work on his day off, but the only thing he wants to do is get home. Meanwhile Elliot tries to convince everyone she is an expert on endocrinology following her brief fellowship, Carla has doubts over being a parent, and Turk has to wrestle over an issue that will either help his career or break his conscience
 
508 My Big Bird - Really good episode. It is about how wrong things can go if they do not take the job seriously enough. J.D., Elliot, Turk and Carla are all formally interrogated following the death of a patient, where it is learned that J.D. and Turk were unnecessarily visiting a patient's home, Carla was gathering the staff to purchase lottery tickets in a group effort, and Elliot was dealing with the wife of a married man she kissed.

520 My Lunch - Great Episode. Features The Fray's How to Save a Life. After repeatedly running into annoying recurring patient Jill Tracy, J.D. feels guilty when she dies of an appararent drug overdose and he didn't act on warning signs. Carla and Elliot convince Todd to admit to being gay, but contrary to what they had hoped, this does not change his personality for the better. Dr. Cox initially consoles J.D. but struggles to follow his own advice later on.

619 My Cold Shower - I like this one because it has to be with J.D. and Elliot, but the ending is the best part other than that it is just mediocre. When Elliot's engagement ring doesn't fit, Keith agrees to a "redo" in which Elliot plans her own engagement. Carla, Jordan and Elliot's sorority sister Melody gather to help plan the "surprise." Meanwhile, the men of Sacred Heart are suffering from too much talk and not enough action: J.D. keeps trying to take it past "macking" with Melody, but she keeps shooting him down, Turk and Carla have not been intimate since their baby was born, and Dr. Kelso's internet is down -- resulting in a lot of cold showers. In the end J.D. realizes that he might still have feelings for Elliot.

622 My Point of No Return - Good ending from about halfway through on. J.D. and Kim move in together as Elliot and Keith continue to plan their wedding, but as they each take big steps in their lives, J.D. and Elliot begin to panic and wonder if they really belong with their respective partners. Janitor and his new brain trust try to make Keith a better husband. Meanwhile, Dr. Cox continues to be angry that J.D. is his daughter's godfather.

So I have decided since I can not decide on anything, but of course this, that I should make a list of jobs I would even remotely consider doing. I will then narrow it down overtime to hopefully within the next say three years or so to have an idea.

Jobs:
1. Write for a T.V. show
2. Write for a Newspaper or Magazine
3. Write Novels
4. Be a Professor
5. Be a Doctor
6. Be an Ambassador
7. Be a Lawyer (YOU KNOW I DON'T EDIT!!!!)
8. Work in a Movie studio
9. Be a Critic for books or movies
10. Do a little bit of everything.

Now although number 10 is the one I would like to do most. It does not seem possible. Because for one if you want to be a professor or doctor it takes an extra 5 or so years of school. Then it would be fine with me if I could do either of those and still write for a T.V. show or a magazine or something however the problem is that with the jobs 4-7 on the list all your free time is devoted to studying up on your subject so much or spending so much of your time on that that you do not really have time to do anything else. The other thing is that if I could do a little writing on any subject I like here or there it would be awesome, but to really do anything it needs full devotion for long periods of time.

Anyways...